Why is February the word so long but the month so short? I spent the last few days crying out loud then with tears and then writing out the cries.
It took me a while to realise if I didn't write this email like one did with an ink pen on precious papers, non erasable on paper too expensive to throw away without flinching, I would polish so vigorously every word and intention, that everything’s gone.
I have an infinite scoll of drafts, all the previous newsletters I did not send, so I decided to send them and wrote this instead.
Feeling feelings
Until last month I didn't realise one is capable of feeling feelings that are not originally yours. Plagiarising ideas is common, but feelings? Ok maybe not plagiarising if it wasn't intentional. It's feeling by osmosis, feelings flow from a place of higher concentration to a place of lower concentration. With feelings, equilibrium is not the goal but amplification, like a virus. Did I say feeling is a virus like a stupid robot who only knows to be smart, unlike the new smart AI robots that mimic our human mediocrity.
Shop in maintenance, direct beakie adoption
My online shop is temporarily closed partly for maintenance, partly because I recognise my energy for packing and shipping is inconsistent and figuring a way round it.
Not you, it’s me
Sometimes or is it most of the time, I want to stay shut from the outside world, and create a world in my beakies.
So if I took more time than an average person to respond, know that it’s not you. Just imagine where I am there is no reception.
The previously mentioned blog posts are waiting at the pipeline while I’m clearing the pipe, making the site run a bit faster. Ditto brain to hands.
Do me a favour, ask me questions
I’ve been putting up more random IG posts, my way of prying myself open.
In the flesh, my friends enjoy visiting me at home at random to, in their words, be entertained by watching me do a millions things. I focus on doing, they ask me questions about the things or the doing, I answer.
My resting state is neutral quiet. Recently, I’ve been asked some few questions about inspirations. It made me realise that could be one way to mimic the kind of connection I’m comfortable with in the flesh—you ask, I answer.
If you had any questions, any at all, it would be a great help to me, to ask me.
The IG feed does’t show the beakie faces anymore because I want to be less intentional.
Any better idea to help you know the new born beakies?
One follower strong Facebook Page
I’ve finally set up a Facebook page and I followed myself. Since deleting the old like 10 years ago, I have recently enough set up a new me. I might experiment with filing future answers tutorials videos pdfs or what not. Do follow if you feel like doing so. Only with growth would I know where to train the vine.
DM or email for adoption
If your soul calls for any beakie on ig or on the site, you can DM or reply to this email.
I will then ask the said beakie if they feel aligned with you. If their picture even called out to you in the first place, it's very likely a yes. The same few you-know-who who have been with me for years are staying with me forever and ever. Try asking Nonono, guess what she’s gonna say.
With all my heart, Marn
Making dolls while being a person.